My weekend was exciting and suspense.. Exciting - Saturday, went little India with fifi.. But we got lost! Should have got down at little India station and not farrer park station! We finally found the place! Did my eyebrow threading! Painful! Suspense - Called him 5 times, he didn't answer. But when fifi used the public phone, he answered! I should plant reasons to hate him! (I can but I just don't want to)
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Exciting - Sunday, I went to Bhavani and Agi wedding at Srivinasa Temple at Farrer Park. She was so beautiful in traditional clothing with her accessories on her.. Especially the flowers on her.. Agi was so relaxed! Food was great! Suspense - Called him every 30mins before I left home, but he didn't answer! So, I left him a msg. I told him, if he doesn't wanna be with me, at least he should have the courtesy to tell me. Instead of hanging me without an answer. I told him to be a MAN! Tell the truth and not lying! Instantly he called! He asked me where I was, I said why bother! He asked me again, I told him at yew tee mrt station. He told me his grandmother story (his bike broke down) and worst he was yelling and frantically apologizing. I cried! And he msged me.. For the record, he promised to go with me, but he didn't. (I have strong case to HATE him, but I choose not too) I'm so torn!
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What does he want from me? Why does he keep hurting me? He can have the option of not goin thru all this with me.. Finding reasons why he stood me up, why he was late, why he didn't answer my calls.. But why he's doing all this.. WHY?
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I need strength and courage to go through this. I wonder for the last 4 years or so, where does the courage and strength come from?
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My mind keep on saying that I should just walk out! But my heart says I should stay. Patience is the key element. For him and me. Trust has to be built. But where should I start from? Does he trust me? Do I trust him? One thousand and one questions and not even one being answered.
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How do one show affections? Through communication or actions? Looking at time, can be very painful. Wondering when is the best time, I should call him and most importantly, when he will call me..
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I should walk out... Should I?