He said he'll pick up at 10pm @ city hall. But he ended up picking me at dover at 10.30pm. At least we met. He drove and we ended up at Kent Ridge Park. It was beautiful.. I love the place.

Finally, I decided to bombard him with all my doubts that I've kept to myself all this while. Started asking about how life has been for him. What has he been up too.. It was very eerie.. I told him my side of the story and the part why I left him. I needed him to know that, all this while was stopping me from commitments is my feelings towards him.

He said with full of energy and sarcasm - 'You are still the first girl who broke my heart!'.. I was devastated. He make it sound as if it was a JOKE! Then he said, it was all because of me that he did all the nonsense things in life. In layman terms, I was the reason why he became 'rebellious'.. I got worst! Very devastated! And I cried.. I said sorry and that I didn't do it purposely.. I remembered that after few months of the break-up, I did try patch things up but he pushed me away, he said, he was still angry at me. That's why I kept my distance away from him since then. Now that we've been meeting up practically everyday, I can't stop wondering what would he do next. Leave me in the dark again, never answer my calls, don't reply to my sms. Its okie, if he decided not to proceed with me. But I would prefer him telling me than leaving me wondering. As one thing I've learnt all these years that, love comes naturally and cannot be forced. Relationships needs two hands to clap.

This past few days, have been the best days of my life being in his arms and holding hands.. I'm not crazy in love but very much infatuation - crush.. I have a huge CRUSH on him again!

For the record, just this morning alone (since 8.30am - I left him 6 miss calls.. More to go!) Gosh! I feel so PATHETIC! And I am a credulousness person!
*his favourite colour was red.. I'm not sure now.. Mine is still the same