things are going smoothly. coping work quite ok. been leaving office at sharp 6.05pm, no more - no less. i don't care about the job. as long i do my work and i know i'm done with it. i don't want to think out of the box anymore. if anyone push me hard, i'll ended up thinking of getting cigarettes for myself. so, its true, old habits hard to KICK!

weekend has been mundane. i found myself laying on the 'sofa' set watching stupid shows and yes, i watch till the end of it. imagine me doing it every weekend! no life huh? yeah, now i hear giggles.

i think i'm now estrangled on a one-sided relationship. i know this guy name kamal. he's nice and cool. the way he walks is funny. but he's kind. much more kinder (if there such a word - if not, i'm just exaggerating) than effendy. i'm sorry effendy. you are nice, but something about you just turn me off. i know we are not perfect, but i just can't be someone, whom i'm not comfortable with. i didn't mean to hurt you, but, the truth hurts. back, to kamal. he's okie, but i think i'm not cut for him. cos, he didn't ask me out like how other guys will ask me out often. he doesn't plan to meet me either. he doesn't even msg me every now and then like how other guys do. is he weird or am i weird? well, i hope i'm not pushing it. but i think i just did.

now, jue must be back resting on her couch, saying 'see i told you'. i don't why she spoke bad of kamal, when she hasn't meet him and greet him. well, i just hope she's doing fine. and i hope me and kamal is fine. he's playing hard to catch huh? i know how to get even!

its just tuesday, and i can't wait for my pay day! i'm shopping. and please don't forget to save $$. must have savings! help!