I was looking forward for today. very excited for today. watching fireworks after work. I packed my bags with all the relevant stuffs, like my facial wash, toner, moisturizer and my deo. so happy! I love fireworks.. I was happily walking at the car park basement heading to mrt off to work. as usual, scanning for his bike. then I saw someone with black helmet sitting on top of his bike. and yes, it was him.. suffian surrahim.. I looked away. I know if I were to look at him, I will just cry. he is the only one that can make my heart melt (at this point of time). I still rekindle at those moments where he picked me up. the most memorable one that I will never forget, was our last date, he picked me up at Dover and headed for Kent ridge park! that was pure moment of me and him. sat down and talked.. he will always be there in my heart.
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so, I've watched the fireworks with a new found friend.. he's nice, polite and totally not effendy type.. hahahha.. but he's 29.. major age gap.. he's working at scdf as officer and he owns a car.. first time in my life I know someone who has a car.. he own the car.. *I'm smiling* but then again, its not about the car.. its about him. smart and has a career (I would prefer to call it a job).. he's been footing all the bills since we were out.. and I feel so bad.. I'll treat him soon! I promise.. but I don't know if he harboured the same feelings like I do.. I hope so.. lets take one at a time..
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lastly! I HATE MY JOB! I can't wait for this S2006 to end.. by September.. then, I hate my pay too! I hasn't start saving.. like I planned.. I MUST START SAVING!! arrrghh..