without a benefit of a doubt, i miss him! although i goin around scanning for guys, but my thoughts were on him.
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it is rough for me. i'm not sure how is he holding up.. he must be in a string of relationship. i saw him recently, i looked away. i knew he saw me. and he knew i saw him. but i didn't have the heart to talk to him, cos, i know that i wouldn't let him go. so i'd rather not see/talk to him.
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saturday, i went out to town for coffee after so long. drank and look at passerby. one caught my eye. caucasian wearing shirt with light blazer and jeans. very french kinda style. suave! then his friend swing by. starbucks now has a policy of non-smoking area. so, the friend decided to sit else where to smoke. he tailed. then i noticed his big bulky fat wallet on the table.

jue - 'you've got two choices - take the wallet or walk up to him and give him the wallet back..'

me - thinking hard

then a starbucks barista passed by me and he was sweeping around the area.

me - 'excuse me, could you pass that wallet to that guy?'

barista - walked over to the guy and gave it to him.

guy's was so relieved! and overwhelmed!

jue was taken aback by my actions. she was saying i could have gotten his number for passing the wallet to him! i was dumbfounded! my flirty skills have gone to waste! :)

town was bustling with gig at liat tower. i and jue walked around headed for louis vuitton, but the doorman showed sign that it was already closed for the day. so was tiffany and co. what a waste! jue was asking me what i want for christmas. i thought she forgottened!

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sunday was denial day for me. telling myself i will be at work the next morning! lucky, nudge was online. asked him to download songs for me. i love that! so i've got some new songs on my list and i can't wait to hear it! i have yet to load it to my mobile.

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monday = mundane. more and non-stop work. been doing internet browsing for new handbag. my $$$ is going haywire. paying bills and debts.. i won't be doing too much shopping this month. hopefully next month! lunch time, i went to bras basah with kris. as we were walking back to office, we noticed a few caucasion expatriates. i told kris, if i were to marry them, i wouldn't mind to stay in s'pore and lead a 'tai-tai' lifestyle. gym, lunch, shopping - everyday! that's my dream life! as we were walking, it starts to pour! and i told kris, that God was listening and that he was giving me his blessing.. heheheh..

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today, i was getting ready to work and i heard thunder! i got ready and left home. i was at my block carpark area. i heard a familiar sound. a bike started its engine. very familiar to me. i was shivering. i knew it was him. i walked hastily and i targetted to be at the traffic junction just in time for him to stop and notice it was me. he passed by me. very mile he drifted away my heart breaks. i could feel him drifting away from me. damm, i'm starting! so, as i was crossing the road, then a strong gush of wind blew and my umbrella flipped open in the middle of the road! how embarrasing! i wouldn't know if he notice it by his side view mirror! major embarrasment! God must be trying to show me a sign.

then i received a msg. 'hope you safe and dry sweetheart!' that's from him (did he notice that?) ! so what am i supposed to do or to say?? apparently, i've got alot to say and to do. i wanted to tell him how hurt am i.. but i just don't wanna spoilt it... i don't wanna loose him again! i will have to be prepared for the worst.. am i prepared?