i was blog hopping and i came across something that made me think twice. 'HOPE IS NEVER ENDING'...
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how true can that be.. i wondered.. hope just make me nervous.. i just gave up on hoping. the longer i hope, the deeper i drowned myself. i will be better!
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it has been exactly one week since i and him last talked, last met and last hold hands together. it is tough. he has been in my mind every minute. in order not to let it become worst, i decided to do things that i hasn't been doing. like reading - agatha christie, thinking of my future and getting more money! i'm thinking of going abroad. like working in aussie or something. i told mom and dad, i've got their blessings.. its just left for me to execute it. but still he's lingering in my mind. everytime i hear bikes passing by, i'll be running to the window (as if running for my life), just to get the glimpse of him.. there were two occasions that he'll look at my window, we saw each other. once he's out of my sight, i'll be back to my normal routine. if only i can shut his bike so that i wouldn't be wondering where is he heading for... other than every few minutes of rekindling moments, i'm fine..
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so now my favourite song is water runs dry from Boyz II Men. it reminded me of him so much. in one way or the other. but what the heck, like as if he cares..
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the weekend i spend was quite okie, saturday lunch with fifi. ate at food culture lot one, none other than ban mian - i should be changing my menu to tom yam.. walked around the boring lot one and chit chat..
fifi - 'you know what, my feeling say you'll be stuck to that guy. like i knew he'll stood you up last sunday, but still my feelings said that he is the one'
monkey - (hug her at that very moment)
after that i'm left smiling to myself, praying it is true..
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i was once heard of a saying - God created human beings in pairs (man and woman), your right one will come.. sooner or later.