What A Boring Weekend!!!
my weekends, both saturday and sunday, was boring as ever.. its like back to square one... i was once living up to what i called a perfect weekend, and now a boring weekend.. you get what i'm trying to say here??? if you don't understand, knock your head! hahahha...
saturday, was merely, counting down to sunday AT HOME!! how extremely pathetic.... until, fifi called me and we went to catch 'the maid'... i reach home, 9.45.. okie, lah the movie..
sunday, attended a wedding at bukit batok... then headed home... with mom, pestering me, to continue my driving lessons.... i almost wanted to kill myself... everytime, she pestered me, i feel like crying..
okie, now on the serious note..
effendy's father passed away on saturday.. msg him my condolences...
and now........ to the guys, i've hurt deeply..
andri, i'm sorry that we can't proceed with the relationship... although, i can see it in your eyes, you were very sincere with me... i must say, everytime, we are out... the constant, shouts and quarrels in the public.. just reminded me of daddy.. whilst people around you are supportive of the relationship... people around me are not.. and if things wouldn't go your way, i'll be the 'punching bag', although, the root of the problem, doesn't come from me.. . and the decision of me stepping back is because, i want you to accomplish the things you want to.. and not having me as your barrier.. i am truly and deeply sorry... i'm glad our path crossed...
effendy... it was a pleasure knowing you.. i thought i could hit the road with you and be happy.. but i guess age is the factor now.. never thought of it.. but i could see it now.. i don't need someone to fastened my seat-belt in a taxi.. i can do it myself.. i don't need someone to show his disappointment face, everytime, i sound my opinion.. the world is a freedom of speech... if you hurt someone, the least you would do is to say 'i'm sorry'.. and that's what i did everytime, i wanted to voice my opinion, i'll go like 'i'm sorry but i just have to say this'..... and when i said, you don't have to sent me home, its not because, i am shy.. but i'm just not used to the fact that someone sending me home.. get this straight.. you can send me home only, if we took a cab or you ride or drive.. guys, who sent me home are the guys with car or bikes.. i don't appreciate it.. and for your info, andri came in later than you, but he made me happy!
well, i'm sorry.. i know i've hurt you guys.. but i just don't want any of my kids, finish school and sec 5 and go ite.. without continuing to poly... and i just don't want to be a wife who sits at home wait for the hubby... and when night comes, hubby said lets do it... i say 'OKIE!'.. YOU GUYS DO AND WILL NOT RUN MY LIFE.. NEVER!
my weekends, both saturday and sunday, was boring as ever.. its like back to square one... i was once living up to what i called a perfect weekend, and now a boring weekend.. you get what i'm trying to say here??? if you don't understand, knock your head! hahahha...
saturday, was merely, counting down to sunday AT HOME!! how extremely pathetic.... until, fifi called me and we went to catch 'the maid'... i reach home, 9.45.. okie, lah the movie..
sunday, attended a wedding at bukit batok... then headed home... with mom, pestering me, to continue my driving lessons.... i almost wanted to kill myself... everytime, she pestered me, i feel like crying..
okie, now on the serious note..
effendy's father passed away on saturday.. msg him my condolences...
and now........ to the guys, i've hurt deeply..
andri, i'm sorry that we can't proceed with the relationship... although, i can see it in your eyes, you were very sincere with me... i must say, everytime, we are out... the constant, shouts and quarrels in the public.. just reminded me of daddy.. whilst people around you are supportive of the relationship... people around me are not.. and if things wouldn't go your way, i'll be the 'punching bag', although, the root of the problem, doesn't come from me.. . and the decision of me stepping back is because, i want you to accomplish the things you want to.. and not having me as your barrier.. i am truly and deeply sorry... i'm glad our path crossed...
effendy... it was a pleasure knowing you.. i thought i could hit the road with you and be happy.. but i guess age is the factor now.. never thought of it.. but i could see it now.. i don't need someone to fastened my seat-belt in a taxi.. i can do it myself.. i don't need someone to show his disappointment face, everytime, i sound my opinion.. the world is a freedom of speech... if you hurt someone, the least you would do is to say 'i'm sorry'.. and that's what i did everytime, i wanted to voice my opinion, i'll go like 'i'm sorry but i just have to say this'..... and when i said, you don't have to sent me home, its not because, i am shy.. but i'm just not used to the fact that someone sending me home.. get this straight.. you can send me home only, if we took a cab or you ride or drive.. guys, who sent me home are the guys with car or bikes.. i don't appreciate it.. and for your info, andri came in later than you, but he made me happy!
well, i'm sorry.. i know i've hurt you guys.. but i just don't want any of my kids, finish school and sec 5 and go ite.. without continuing to poly... and i just don't want to be a wife who sits at home wait for the hubby... and when night comes, hubby said lets do it... i say 'OKIE!'.. YOU GUYS DO AND WILL NOT RUN MY LIFE.. NEVER!
having said that, is the future for me to hold? or is the future for me to explore? is my future in my hands or is it in HIS hands??
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