I'M BEGINNING TO BE DESPISE OF THESE GUYS!!!

am i punishing myself or punishing these guys??? i'm so clue less and stressed..

how on earth did i ever got myself into this knot!? its killing me, everytime i think of it..

i'm not like those girls, who sits on their ass and think when she's getting married... the thought of getting married gives me the shiver... I'M SOO NOT INTO THIS MARRIAGE THINY!!! at the meantime.

can you believe me when i said, fat guy wanna marry me.. and we even planned to hv a engagement party rather than engagement feast (the muslim kinda way).. as i'm typing it out, i'm beginning to hate myself.. for whatever trouble that i've caused myself and to anyone in this world.. and for whatever trouble that is coming my way!!!

i should have stayed single and solo.. waiting for Him to be mine again..... i dun care how long but i know i'll be happy.. will he be happy too??? (actually i know the answer but i just wanna be ego)