i realized that, i've learnt alot patience.

first, was the 'u-steal-my-best friend-AWAY' situation.

what would you feel if someone is going around talking about you (behind your back)? what would you do when someone close to you address the issue on one's behalf? sounds, twisting? well, its a 'GIRL THING'.

i take very serious of what others might think of me. the good comments, i'd be very thankful. but the bad ones, i will do self reflections. true, what they say, 'not everyone in this world you can please'. hence, when i hear something not very pleasing or very nice about me (esp from someone who just know by my name), i get really upset. i believe any normal person would feel and react the same way as me.

after the talk i had, i walked home and it felt like as if, home is so far away from the mrt station. my heart was so heavy, my mind was reminded of the conversation i had over and over. i kept hearing the words like being played on a tape-recorder. it so hard for me to 'swallow' everything all alone. and i resorted to confide to someone close to me, as, i don't believe in keeping things to myself.

seeing ppl around me solving their conflicts, i start to do reflections upon myself. what if this conflict happens to me and someone close. what would i do to resolve this situation. how do i 'clear up the air/mess'? will there be any third party that will instigate and make matters worst? i can't stop thinking and wonder.

i believe that problems are 'created' by human being and they have to address the issue wisely. and when left too long without solving it, there will be hard feelings, grudges and angst. worst, if u need to find a particular reason to put the fault at someone. so, rather than blaming people, why don't you blame yourself for everything that doesn't go your way? why blame yourself, if you ask me. its simple, because, you are the only one, complaining and whining.

one thing i've learnt throughout this episode of my life, if you have problem with someone, go straight and talk it out to that someone. dont go around talking to people. rather than open out to lots of people, why dont you call the newspaper to publish your story? isn't more empathy fame?

so now, i'm left to pick up the pieces with my own GF. when the episode has got nothing to do with us. i still can't believe that you want us to resolve between us when you were the one who started the fire. always remember this, 'what goes around comes around'

secondly, i just came back from a colleague's mother funeral. though i didn't have the chance to know her mother well, but i know her very well. a very responsible daughter.

her mother has been suffering from cancer for years. until recently the family decides to stop the chemotheraphy which doesn't help to reduce the sufferings, due to her age. when there was no more chemo, the cancer cells became active and within weeks her mother became bedridden. my colleague took several days of leave to be by her mother's side and aid her. yesterday, she was somewhat cheerful, not like the past 2 weeks - very quiet and feeling down. and she told us that she'll be away from the office till next week, just to be with her mother. but Allah loves her more, Yati's mom passed away yesterday evening peacefully. and luckily everyone was by there by her side.

Yati was so sad. kept crying and sobbing. i too shed tears seeing her in that kind of situation.

i prayed that everyone close to me, will be strong and patience in every situation they faced in this life. and given courage to go through each day with a smile.