i feel like i'm sitting on a roller-coaster. and it has been turning non-stop..
and at one point i'm not sure if i should cry, laugh, smile or just 'buat bodoh' - act stupid.
with the changes in the office, the departure of my colleague whom i adore and address her 'Kakak' - elder sister.
i realise, that i'm loosing someone who could tolerate - (on a daily basis) my crappiness, my sarcarsm and importantly my thoughts and feelings. i will definitely miss her (everything about her).
but, having said that...
i know, she leaving the office will release her of the 12 years torture (being a secretary to THAT LADY BOSS) and make good use of the 'free' time for herself and her upcoming bundle of joy - baby girl, which is due in april.
and when i tell her, 'i'm going to miss you..' she will reply, 'dont worry, we just keep in touch. you can call me, sms me, msn me (which i can't log in during office hours, IT people block it), skype me or come to my place and chill..'
but you know what Roswati Sayadi, its a different thing between chatting virtually and FACE TO FACE.. its a total different feeling..
then again, we can't put hold of someone's future for our own benefit. so, my prayers will always be with her and her family.
i remembered she once told me that, she thought i'm a FILLIPINO judging by my 'professional' name - Anne Giman. and that somehow disgust her when she finally came to know the truth that i'm a CLUMSY Malay girl (disgust her, because she didn't know me well as we weren't office colleagues yet).
and i recalled one incident, called her at 11pm, crying frantically like a mad girl, pouring out to her about my heartbreaking moment - i shall not eleborate. and till today, i'm glad i made that call at that time with that kind of situation.
thank god!
on a lighter note...
i can't wait to see baby girl, and rub her nose with mine, on our first introduction!
one story down....
i'm on leave today, friday, 9th January 2009.
booked a spa treatment.
going to ask the therapist to relieve my tension and take my stress away (that would be a miracle).
improve my blood circulatory system - to 'infuse' new and fresh blood for my brains.
its going to be a long girly day for me. i've been wanting this. do the girly things.
will end the day with a dinner with the RKPLians at bar & billiard at Raffles Hotel
hopefully, i won't to too tired to post by the end of today.
i'm currently stuck with a mellow song (err, that's a lie...)
allow me to repeat that line, with honesty.
i'm currently stuck with an emo song.. (aah.. that sounds much better)
song name : tanpa kekasihku (without my lover)
artiste : agnes monica (indonesian teenage singer)
the starting of the song connects to me.. the first few lines only, while the rest of the lines doesn't. it tells about her lover got murdered and dead.. which of cause doesn't apply to me. my "lover" is still alive and running around or maybe walking around with someone else. - i'm totally cool about it - maybe....
Langit begitu gelap
Hujan juga tak juga reda
Ku harus menyaksikan cintaku terenggut tak terselamatkan
Ingin ku ulang hari
Ingin ku perbaiki
Kau sangat ku butuhkan
Beraninya kau pergi dan tak kembali
Dimana letak surga itu
Biar kugantikan tempatmu denganku
Adakah tangga surga itu
Biar kutemukan untuk bersamamu
Kubiarkan senyumku menari di udara
Biar semua tahu kematian tak mengakhiri...
Cinta..
Apalah artinya hidup tanpa kekasihku
Percuma ku ada disini sendiri
Kekasihku... Bersamamu...
Kekasihku... Bersamamu...
Kekasihku... Bersamamu...
Kekasihku... Bersamamu...
Kekasihku... bersamamu...
ok, song finish...
moving on....... :)
lastly, i want to share something.
you know where to find me....
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