i've been having this feeling.. and awkward one.. something is amiss.. in office... then, yesterday, dot asked me out for lunch.. after quite sometime.. the minute she put her butt on the chair @ moss burger, she shot me 'how are you?'.. i just want to tell her that everything is not fine.. i'm tired of the office and what i've been doing.. but, i didn't.. i told her otherwise, i told her, i'm excited for the upcoming KL trip with my sec friends.. deep down, i'm not doing well.. and i really wish to tell her that i'm leaving in feb. i have to leave.. i don't wish to sit in a room with henry talking abt my work performance, i hate when he does that. i'll be feeling all shitty. i thought i did my best.. its like, i'm the adviser while they are the clients, fussy clients.. is it really me?? why me??

i was hinted.. to be careful of cat.. i've been always been wary of cat.. just like the animal, cat, is so sly. she always have something up her sleeves. whenever there's task for her, i have to do it with extra cautious.. i cried when i was hinted to be careful of her.. i cried thinking what else would i get from henry.. i cried because the attention and love, from a sister i never had! i'm an EMOTIONAL lady.. till today, i'm feeling all shitty.. thinking would i get my AWS this year?? would it be 13th month bonus?? would i get like everyone else - AWS + bonus?? i just need the money.. but hey, who doesn't?!

i'm stressed! i don't know if i could make it.. i'm crying.. i'm sad.. i'm tired.. exhausted!

*she's sad*